II of Swords Spell

Stalemate, 
checkmate, 
This decision is a weighted wait; 
or is it a waited weight?

My eyes are open but shut to what is seen.
Two choices, both good, both bad, both are in between. 
I'm betwixt;
I've got it twisted.
The problem's persisted.

Which rules: head or heart?
Is this a finish or a start?
My mind is unkind to feelings and intuition; 
My heart is apart from thoughts and reason.

Logic versus emotion,
is like a weak potion, 
a baseless decision...
indecision, imprecision, 
My own prison:
thoughts bashing around without passion.

Both shall be considered
until I'm no longer bewildered.
I can't stay here,
with or without fear,
covering my heart and shielding my mind
with swords that stab each other blind.

My complete self, my wealth, I will find inside.
The answers to my questions 
and the questions to my answers
therein reside.

Now, what did I decide?